just because it didn't happen when you were there- does NOT mean it DOESN'T matter. who do you think you are?

it's frustrating because i get the impression that amy thinks this goal of moving to boston/east coast is just a new thing that'll last only a few months at the most because she assumes i want attention or some shit. i would be PERFECTLY FINE if NO ONE from my family/people who lived in the town i grew up in paid attention to me and spoke to me again (but joe and jay). she somehow gets this idea because she just started working with me- she thinks so this goal probably won't last long. FOR HER INFORMATION- i ALMOST died trying to get AWAY from my family and *gasp* i STILL have the desire to live in the SAME area of this country (not specifically in the exact same place but the same region of this country)! I'VE BEEN WORKING ON FINDING HOUSING ON THE EAST COAST FOR NEARLY TWENTY FOUR YEARS. YES- IT IS POSSIBLE TO BE THAT TRAUMATIZED. AMANDA AND ANYONE LAUGHING SARCASTICALLY AT THIS DON'T KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO GET CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF YOUR OWN FUCKIN PARENTS PHYSICALLY AND VERBALLY FIGHTING AND GETTING KICKED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FIGHT WHEN YOUR OWN DAMN MOM USES YOU AS A SHIELD WHEN YOUR DAD IS KICKING AND BEATING ON HER. the travel pca who took me to boston said to me, "i don't see why you wanna move JUST because of her.. you don't have to talk to her when you're in minnesota.." no but everyone just assumes she's a good mom who takes care of her daughter and stays in contact with her because that's what they'd do if they were in her position. NOT TO MENTION- MY DAMN SISTER BUILT AN OBSESSION WITH BEING LIKE HER KEWLIEZ OLDER SISSY WHO ALSO FUCKED HER LIFE UP EARLY IN LIFE (EXCEPT I KEPT MY FUCKIN LEGS CLOSED AND NEVER DROPPED OUTTA SCHOOL JUST BECAUSE I MADE A MISTAKE IN LIFE). JUST BECAUSE WE HAVE THE SAME DNA, IT DOES NOT MAKE US ANYTHING ALIKE. YOU MADE THAT APPARENT WHEN YOU DROPPED OUTTA SCHOOL AND KEPT GETTING KNOCKED UP. besides that- the person who i want to build a life with lives on the east coast and it's my stupid family's (except for joe) fault for not being more supportive of my goal to create MY life on the east coast (also so i couldn't have dicks claiming i stayed in minnesota because i'm a WELFARE RAT- ask MY COUSIN missy and HER BOYFRIEND kevin's stupid asses about this comment if you're confused.. i DON'T forget shit- guess that was my thank you for bringing them to a concert with me a long time ago). SEE HOW CARING AND SUPPORTIVE MY FAMILY IS, AMY?! EXACTLY WHY I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO DESIRE TO STAY IN THIS DAMN STATE. MY FAMILY (EXCEPT JOE AND JAY) SUCKS. that was the only supposed reason that people assume i stay in this hell hole. OH BUT THAT HAPPENED BEFORE YOU STARTED WORKING WITH ME! SO IT DOESN'T COUNT! RIGHT?! WRONG. STILL TRAUMATIZING MY BRAIN. NICE.. A FAMILY WHO CAUSES TRAUMA TO ME, IT'S SO HARD TO SEE WHY I WANNA MOVE FROM THIS HELLHOLE! *ROLLS EYES* your ass better call someone before i end my trust with your bank because it's not convenient to assist me in ways more convenient for YOU.